Saturday, January 30, 2010 X 11:04 AM
the heart ♥
They say the heart is the strongest muscle in the body.Sometimes I dont feel like thats the case for me.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010 X 3:20 PM
just another emo post ♥
You have been warned, this is an emo post so you can just close it.Sometimes I'm afraid to tell ppl how I feel.
Not because I dont trust them.
Its because I dont know how to express how I feel to them in words.
Heck, sometimes I dont know how to express it out to myself. All I do is scream, and not even out loud. Just in my head.
Also because I dont want them to judge me.
Yes, I care too much about what ppl think of me. But not in terms of what I wear. That I dont care.
Lastly, coz I dont expect them to understand how I feel.
Simple, like now. No one can understand how I feel when I see someone with smooth skinn.
No one can understand how I felt when I was young and when ppl called me the girl with skin disease.
No, I'm not looking for you all to pity me. This is my blog, and sort of my only way to express my feelings.
Some times I feel like its better for me to keep it to myself.
Coz even if I tell it out, ppl might not understand how I feel. And worst, they judge you or misunderstand it for something else.
I know this is a quite messed up post. But screw it.
Off to Sabah.
Saturday, January 09, 2010 X 1:33 AM
fine, i'll admit ♥
goshhh, i cant believe i had to dl a new application just to blog on my itouch.anywayss, i cant sleep right now with all these thoughts in my mind.
so i thought i shud let it all out but i'm lazy to get up n on my lappie.
so yeaa, i'm actually layin on my bed tappin away on my ipod.
my mum has been goin on n on bout me not doin my internship this year.
n now, as much as i hate to admit it, i actually regret not applyin for it this year.
DAMN ittt! should have applied.
goshh, i surw hope my mum doesnt read this!
sure, bummin around is preetty fun but u know that it starts to get sad when ur mum actually gets happy to see u go out.
yeaaa, thats happenin to me right now.
but, who can blame them?
i mean not everyone is as free as me. some have work, some have classes, some have to spend time with their other half, some..
ahh, i just lost my train of thoughts.
hopefully i can get some sleep now.
good night world!
Wednesday, January 06, 2010 X 9:04 AM
hello hello (: ♥
I know I have been neglecting my blog for such a long long time!Well, coz I'm lazy to go online.
All I do now is just check my mail on my iTouch.
But anyways, here's a short update.
Soo what have I been doing lately?
I went for Karaoke with Ah Yee, Stef, Shzen & Niggie.
Organised a Mini Farewell/Steamboat party for Sann at my place.
Flew off to China for hols on my birthday.
Nothing much happened during my birthday except having Niggie sending a bouquet of flowers over to my house.
Awww.
But but, I wasnt home!
Still, its so sweet of him. Thanks Ah Yee & Niggie for the beautiful flowers.
Ok, my trip to China. Well, the trip was alright. I din really get to go shopping much.
The weather was sooo cold. I'm talking about 0 to -36 celcius!
And because of this, it has done soo much damage to my skinn! ):
All the rashes are backkk ):
I'm recovering now. At one point, my eyes, ears n face was bengkak!
So I hide myself at home!
Now, its slightly better so haha I can go out again.
Plans for this week.
Today - Mum's Birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!
Thurs - Yumcha with Ah Yee and maybe Shzen
Fri - Dinner plans with family
Sat/Sun - outing with Shi Ching and maybe Yih Sy
Thats all. I'm too lazy to blog anymore.
Thursday, December 10, 2009 X 11:49 PM
something call life ♥
First is this, then its that.Then I thought I dropped my Ipod on the road. But phew, good thing I found it at the back seat!
I think I'm having a streak of bad luck today.
Hopefully its getting better one by one.
Shit Happens!
I will be away until Mon.
All these shit is getting me all stressed up, I guess its a good thing my mum signed up the family (excluding the spoil brat, yes my sis coz she went for her own camp) for Meditation camp.
I really need it now.
Will be back sooon.
Really glad to have the Karaoke therapy with my Karaoke gang and catching up session with Shzen today.
I needed that.
Sunday, November 29, 2009 X 9:00 PM
helpless ♥
Have you ever reach a point where you feel like there's nothing you can do to make things better?I wish I could make things better.
Everyday I pray that all goes well. I still do.
Saturday, November 28, 2009 X 11:26 PM
recovery mode ♥
To those who still dont know,Yes, I'm BACK (:
So you better start clearing out your plans and make time for mee coz I'm not going to be here as long as last yearrr.
Anyways, I'm still in recovery mode these few days.
Feel damn exhausted and the only thing I want to do is sleeep.
Still recovering from finals, moving and cleaning.
So yeaaa, the main reason for this post is to let you all know that i'm BACK in MALAYSIA NOW (:
Saw Firms and Yinxie today but the both of them were super busy so didnt really get to catch up much plus I was damn sleepy.
I'm heading off to bed now.
What? So early?
Yeaa, like I said, I'm in recovery mode now.
Plus, I have to wake up at 7am tomorrow soo yeaa nite nite.
Text me if you want to meet up with meee. I will definitely make time for you ppl.
My Msian number is still the same. If you dont have it then PM me (:
Going to bed now.
Monday, November 23, 2009 X 12:40 AM
OMG! How did I get here ? (: ♥
HELLO (:I don't know how I got here D:
since jie jie haven't been updating,
I shall update for her.
It's not wrong right ? (:
YOUNG TZE XIAN IS GOING TO BE BACK IN MALAYSIA SOON (:
She's going to drive me around,
send me to tuition and
OMG WE'LL SHOP TILL WE DROP. (: (: (:
Well not exactly,
but you get what I mean (:
I CAN'T WAIT !
I have been waiting for this day ever since the last day of PMR (:
cause you know the Oh!-I-cannot-walk-too-long mum.
She promise to bring me shopping
but she never did.
...OH WAIT !
Maybe once or twice
but you know me I'm never satisfy with once or twice.
I think a gazillion times will satisfy me (:
Tralalala (:
Wednesday, November 11, 2009 X 4:58 AM
symptons of depression ♥
So, I screwed up 2 papers.Wing, I'm sorry for saying I screwed up 2 papers and you havent screwed up one yet.
It was the depression talking.
I have been so crappy and many lame jokes.
I think those are my symptons of depression.
Weird right?
Ppl with depression usually lock themselves in a dark room or cut themselves.
I make lame jokes! Also, I keep smiling all the time. Geeez.
Anyways, so I screwed up 2 papers. I'm just hoping I did better than I expected and pass the damn units. I dont want to do it againnn ):
One more paper to gooo! Next Wed. I'm going to go in all prepared for it! *i hope!*
Went to Wagaya for dinner last night. Wanted to try the place, but nahh. it wasnt goood! din like it coz it din have much choice of noodles, rice n sushi!
Slept damn early and I'm now all rechargedd! (:
Woohooo!
Going to make myself breakfast then start studying Corp Finance!
Manman, I CAN'T WAIT to go homeeee! I miss my family and friends sooo muchhhh! It has been nearly a year alreadyyy!
Ok, I'm hungry! Going to make breakfast now. Bye (:
Saturday, November 07, 2009 X 4:57 AM
here you go ♥
okok. since u have been bugging me to update.here's one.
i'm sickk ):
i hate being sickkk! plus, its exam timeee! ISHH!
its all the country report's fault! i actually got better and it made it worseee ):
ok, goin to continue studyin againnn.
happpy
"Holding anger is a poison. It eats you from inside. We think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us. But hatred is a curved blade. And the harm we do, we do to ourselves."
— Mitch Albom (The Five People You Meet in Heaven)