Monday, November 23, 2009 X 12:40 AM
OMG! How did I get here ? (: ♥
HELLO (:I don't know how I got here D:
since jie jie haven't been updating,
I shall update for her.
It's not wrong right ? (:
YOUNG TZE XIAN IS GOING TO BE BACK IN MALAYSIA SOON (:
She's going to drive me around,
send me to tuition and
OMG WE'LL SHOP TILL WE DROP. (: (: (:
Well not exactly,
but you get what I mean (:
I CAN'T WAIT !
I have been waiting for this day ever since the last day of PMR (:
cause you know the Oh!-I-cannot-walk-too-long mum.
She promise to bring me shopping
but she never did.
...OH WAIT !
Maybe once or twice
but you know me I'm never satisfy with once or twice.
I think a gazillion times will satisfy me (:
Tralalala (:
Wednesday, November 11, 2009 X 4:58 AM
symptons of depression ♥
So, I screwed up 2 papers.Wing, I'm sorry for saying I screwed up 2 papers and you havent screwed up one yet.
It was the depression talking.
I have been so crappy and many lame jokes.
I think those are my symptons of depression.
Weird right?
Ppl with depression usually lock themselves in a dark room or cut themselves.
I make lame jokes! Also, I keep smiling all the time. Geeez.
Anyways, so I screwed up 2 papers. I'm just hoping I did better than I expected and pass the damn units. I dont want to do it againnn ):
One more paper to gooo! Next Wed. I'm going to go in all prepared for it! *i hope!*
Went to Wagaya for dinner last night. Wanted to try the place, but nahh. it wasnt goood! din like it coz it din have much choice of noodles, rice n sushi!
Slept damn early and I'm now all rechargedd! (:
Woohooo!
Going to make myself breakfast then start studying Corp Finance!
Manman, I CAN'T WAIT to go homeeee! I miss my family and friends sooo muchhhh! It has been nearly a year alreadyyy!
Ok, I'm hungry! Going to make breakfast now. Bye (:
Saturday, November 07, 2009 X 4:57 AM
here you go ♥
okok. since u have been bugging me to update.here's one.
i'm sickk ):
i hate being sickkk! plus, its exam timeee! ISHH!
its all the country report's fault! i actually got better and it made it worseee ):
ok, goin to continue studyin againnn.
happpy
"Holding anger is a poison. It eats you from inside. We think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us. But hatred is a curved blade. And the harm we do, we do to ourselves."
— Mitch Albom (The Five People You Meet in Heaven)
Saturday, October 31, 2009 X 12:16 PM
embrace aging ♥
I have to admit.I feel so old now.
I feel so exhausted of everything now.
Everyday I ask myself, do I even want to go on with this?
A big part of me say, no. Its so exhausting and not really worth it.
A small part of me say, maybe you should because of the consequences of my action will affect alot of people especially ppl around me.
Decisions decisions.
How I wish I was a kid again. Damn!
Since there's no point looking back in time, I shall look forward to the day I go back home. (:
Anywaysss, changing topic.
I was reading Niggie's blog that dayyy and he just made me feel like re-reading Mitch Albom books again!
And he has a NEW BOOK! (:
Mitch Albom is one of my favourite authorr!
His books are always so meaningful, especially the quotes.
"If you hold back on the emotions--if you don't allow yourself to go all the way through them--you can never get to being detached, you're too busy being afraid. You're afraid of the pain, you're afraid of the grief. You're afraid of the vulnerability that loving entails. But by throwing yourself into these emotions, by allowing yourself to dive in, all the way, over your heard even, you experience them fully and completely."
— Mitch Albom (Tuesdays with Morrie)
"...You can go your whole life collecting days, and none will outweigh the one you wish you had back."
— Mitch Albom (For One More Day)
"Learn this from me. Holding anger is a poison. It eats you from inside. We think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us. But hatred is a curved blade. And the harm we do, we do to ourselves."
— Mitch Albom (The Five People You Meet in Heaven)
I just randomly picked a few. There are so many moree.
When I go back, I'm going to re-read all 3 and buy the new one as welll (:
Ok, back to Country Report ):
Wednesday, October 28, 2009 X 8:32 PM
ignorant is bliss ♥
Sure sucks to be so self aware.If only I could be abit more ignorant, blame the world for everything that goes wrong.
Instead of always thinking that its my fault and I'm responsible for that. yadiyada.
Then maybe, I would be more happy.
I only rant when I'm angry but I dont rant when I'm emo/upset.
Simply because whenever I am emo, someone else is not having a good day as well.
Then I dont feel good ranting about my silly little problems.
Also, don't ask me why am I crying. Coz I can't give you an answer. Because its an accumulation of all my sad things.
So yes, I dont have a specific reason. Its unhealthy, I know.
I know I take things very seriously. Because I always have to deal with ppl who tend to misunderstand the things I say.
Thats why sometimes I cant take jokes, the only jokes I can take are the lame and crappy ones. So unsporting. I know.
I'm well aware of all these things.
What am I suppose to do? I know I need to take a chill pill.
But, this is how I was brought up.
Ppl tell me to be myself. Boy, sure is easy to say that.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009 X 9:20 PM
time off. ♥
Man, being in SUAMS you really have to be 100% committed.Sometimes its soo tiring. Its like I'm married to it.
But the only difference is that at least for marriage, you're married to someone you love.
But in this case? Haih.
I don't even have time for myself anymore.
All I want now is to go back home.
A break from SUAMS.
Damn, its sure is tiring.
Monday, October 26, 2009 X 11:05 PM
trying to be a superwoman ♥
Damn! Its already Week 13!Finals is coming soon! But I will have one stupid assignment!
Dear Xian, please get it done by this Thursday/Friday! So that you can start studying!
Okok, next year is going to be a super tough/hectic year.
Final year, SUAMS Treasurer & MFest Marketing Executive Producer.
Mannnn, I think I'm trying to be a superwoman.
I'll let you guys know how its going.
I neeed some time for myself soo badly nowww!
Monday, October 19, 2009 X 11:27 AM
my sis, the voice thief ♥
To my sister who lost her voice,I am the one who stole your voice.
I hope you will forgive me.
I didn't do it on purpose.
But I think your voice likes me better. (:
Hope you live a happy life without your voice :D
Love,
Your Sister
who stole your voice.
Wei :)
Your Sister
who stole your voice.
Wei :)
How nice. My sis stole my voice.
YOU BETTER GIVE IT BACK TO ME ASAP! Or else I dont teman you go shopping when I come back!
Saturday, October 17, 2009 X 7:47 AM
warning ♥
To whoever who stole my voice,Please give it back to me.
You have till the end of the day to give it back to me or else I will call the Bubblepuff Girls!
Friday, October 16, 2009 X 3:25 PM
worst week ever! ♥
First it was assignment and tests causing me 2 sleepless nights.Then frustrations and stress giving me hard time falling asleep.
And now, I'm sick. Just niceee!
I lost my voice, so people don't call me. Just msg me on MSN or text me.
Just when I thought that was it, I had a nightmare yesterday.
I dreamt that everyone underestimated my abilities, didn't believe in me, didn't have confidence in me, didn't know who I am.
I went around trying to convince them my abilities.
But all I get is people looking at me in disbelief.
How nice.
What a way to boost my confidence and release my stress.